Date: Wednesday, February 29, 2012 Time: 9:27 PM
after telling mummy i broke up . she will find out anyways hmmmmm i went to the computer desk sat across him while he was playing dota & said "korkor , im sad" after awhile he looked at me, my tearing eyes & said "****** bully you uh?" i said no , we broke up & tears just fell . he hanged up the phone , looked at me , asked why & promised not to tell anyone mummy was in the living room , i didnt want her to hear what shit you did in her eyes , youre oh-so-perfect how could i spoil that image ? i wrote wthe reasons on the piece of paper he looked at what i wrote & pointed middle finger and wrote "da fucq" hahah , kinda funny i wonder what would happen if i told him the full shit you put me through who knew , my brother the dota king would pause his game to listen to me to hear my pains & even ... comfort me who knew he told me , these exact words "its okay , just think of him as an asshole and forget him" well , ive been hearing that alot but hearing korkor say it i felt.. genuinely comforted this is the same brother that hit me when i was younger , bullied me & yet he smiled and talked to me nicely this time he said when he broke up it was because the girl fell for someone else he said he know how it feels , he felt worse cause he lost money HAHA well , ive lost the faith to believe in love again ive lost someone i thought to be a great friend i lost the time spent on doing those little hadicrafts i lost so much more well , at least ive got family & friends & most importantly my Daddy in heaven He has a plan for me , everything happens for a reason & He will never put me through something i cant handle i will be fine Thank you korkor , i love you (: thank you Daddy , youre the best (: |